I started having premature contraction at 33 weeks 2 days, stayed in labour room for 5 days and baby Evana was born at 33 weeks 6 days. Frankly, all this while I have a feeling that I wont deliver so late near to my Expected due date, but around 2 weeks earlier, but it never crossed my mind that my baby will arrive 2 months early. I thought I was prepared, but apparently not when everything happened so suddenly. That itself already poses as a stress.
I guess it was the accumulation of all the stresses & tiredness, the 5 days stay in labour room, extended stay due to baby's jaundice, and there it exploded - post partum blues. I get very cranky, every little things upset me easily, and the tears are inevitable! The worse is when people constantly nag at me, I really can't control my emotion, I'm so angry & frustrated, I almost thought that I'm going to lost my mind.Yes, believe me. I'm usually someone who can hide my feeling when it comes to dealing with elderly, I hate nagging, but I never failed to hide it & almost always show up a smile instead. But this time, I really can't help the rudeness I've shown infront of the elderly, every single things just stressed me out.
Thank God things get better once I'm at home, with the constant love, and most importantly, no constant nagging! Gosh, can't believe that nagging is so scary :) Don't worry, no more post-partum blues ;) And now, I do believe it exist. So people, stay away from any source of stress during your post-partum time, you have no idea how those hormonal changes makes you so vulnerable.
