Adapting New Place

Today marked a week the 3 of us moving to KL, husband moving back to further his study, so me & lil Evana will be here for few months to be with him. Frankly, I miss home already. I miss the peacefulness I had back at home, I miss the freedom of going out & driving around whenever I feel like it to buy things, to buy food when i feel like eating anything, to run errands, or simply when I feel like I need some outside air & window shop. Now I become dependent for everything. And I certainly miss having my own freedom to do things my way at home, without having people judging me and telling me what to do, what not to do, when to do, must do, etc. But this is life, you d'ont always get what you want, and i'm in a process of adapting. In order to stay beside your loved ones, we have to sacrifice. Thou I wish I have other option.

Lil Evana will be turning 2 months next week (adjusted age 2 weeks), and she's really a bundle of joy for me, just look at her face melt me. She's pretty much an easy to handle baby. I enjoy reading story books to her, yes, reading story books, proof that I'm so jobless! :) Believe me, being a doctor is way much easier that being a housewife, except the part that I get to spend time with my little one..

Till then...

Does post-partum blues exist?

Post-partum blues. All this while I don't believe it actually existed, to me it is just a matter of mothers who can't hold on to their emotions. Up until I experienced it myself, at least I think it's post-partum blues.

I started having premature contraction at 33 weeks 2 days, stayed in labour room for 5 days and baby Evana was born at 33 weeks 6 days. Frankly, all this while I have a feeling that I wont deliver so late near to my Expected due date, but around 2 weeks earlier, but it never crossed my mind that my baby will arrive 2 months early. I thought I was prepared, but apparently not when everything happened so suddenly. That itself already poses as a stress. 

I guess it was the accumulation of all the stresses & tiredness, the 5 days stay in labour room, extended stay due to baby's jaundice, and there it exploded - post partum blues. I get very cranky, every little things upset me easily, and the tears are inevitable! The worse is when people constantly nag at me, I really can't control my emotion, I'm so angry & frustrated, I almost thought that I'm going to lost my mind.Yes, believe me. I'm usually someone who can hide my feeling when it comes to dealing with elderly, I hate nagging, but I never failed to hide it & almost always show up a smile instead. But this time, I really can't help the rudeness I've shown infront of the elderly, every single things just stressed me out.

Thank God things get better once I'm at home, with the constant love, and most importantly, no constant nagging! Gosh, can't believe that nagging is so scary :) Don't worry, no more post-partum blues  ;) And now, I do believe it exist. So people, stay away from any source of stress during your post-partum time, you have no idea how those hormonal changes makes you so vulnerable.

A new journey.. A new start..

It's been so long since I last blog. I used to blog during my Uni time, but I've abandoned the habit when I started working due to work commitment 3 years back.

Can't believe I'm a mommy now! I still feel everything just happened yesterday, started working, my courtship with my-then-boyfriend, being engaged, exchanging I-DO, those 8 months long distance marriage, jumping with thrills & happiness over the double blue lines, the up & down of having lil Evana growing in my womb, her sudden decision of seeing the world early, and... here I am, a happy mom! She's such a wonderful gift from God.

Another new chapter of my life, a first time mom, welcome myself into parenthood. Haha, I feel old. Lil Evana is 1 month and 1 day old today (Corrected age 38 weeks 2 days), she has already fills my life with so much excitement & of course it's own roller coaster ride, who can run away from it right? Part & parcel of life.

To my little bundle of joy, Evana, Mommy already love you even before you existed! (How strange is that). Muaxx..

Till then..